Day 1- Your Best Friend

Dear M.,

Of all the friends I have, we both know that you and I have the history of being in conflicts with each other every once in a while. You aren’t my first best friend, I’ve known you for only 5 years, we rarely talked when we got into college, and yet, I knew I had to write this letter for you in light of recent events. That, and because you and A. have been like sisters to me.

M., first of all, I’m sorry. I’m sure I haven’t fit in your idea of how a great friend would be. Trust me, that pains me as much as it does you. I was terribly distraught with what had happened between the two of us. All I can say to you is I’ve been as true as I possibly could be, and I hanged on as long as I could.

I was hurt, and so were you. I might have done things which aggravated the situation, and I apologize. Sometimes, my immaturity still rears out and lashes it’s ugly head for the people who aren’t supposed to see. I’m sorry that you became its casualty. I apologize for my short comings.

When I emailed you 2-3 weeks ago, I had a misunderstanding with a friend. Before we fought, we were talking about the friendships we lost/at risk of losing. I thought of you. I spoke about how I felt like I cared too much most of the time, and that was how I honestly felt, but then I figured, I’ll never get to know your side, thus prompting the email.

I felt hope upon receiving your reply. Finally, finally, we get to resolve this. We shouldn’t have let this drag on as long as we did. It wasn’t fair to both of us, was it? I’m glad we got back in our senses. I’m looking forward to seeing you as soon as possible, and reconnecting. Hey, it may seem awkward, but we’re backed up by the years of good (and bad) memories. 

I really really really want to see you. You’ll always be one of my sisters, no matter how many times we fight. I love you, M.